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Goodbye My Old Friend: An Open Letter to Shonda Rhimes and Grey’s Anatomy

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People who know me well know that I probably take the TV shows I invest time in a little too seriously, and a little too personally. I started watching Grey’s Anatomy the day before my 14th birthday. I was a freshman in a high school that I didn’t feel particularly loved or comfortable in (does anyone in high school feel particularly loved and comfortable???). Anyway the show began right around the time when my closest group of friends began to circle each other like a great bar against all senses of evil and darkness that would come our way. I called my best friend my person, my Die, just like Meredith did with her best friends. The show was a weekly beacon for us to watch and connect and imagine our lives would shape into (my best friend eventually going to med school to be a surgeon the likes of the character I’d always called her by). Sure, it was a primetime soap that often saw bombs and car accidents and lots of different forms of sadness along the way, but the relationships between the characters always felt like this tangible proof of long term friendships and hope—hope for human understanding, hope for happiness, and (maybe) most importantly hope for love.

The years have seen characters come and go, but Meredith and her love were always a rock for the show to come back to, and for its audience to feel trust in. It seemed that’s where the show started—in a living room on the floor—and that’s where it would end.


On this week’s episode, Meredith and Derek’s story came to a close when his car was hit by a truck in an awful car accident. The ending felt weak and cheap and rushed. It felt like there were forces happening behind the scenes that made the ending so abrupt.

I know it’s a TV show and I really shouldn’t care. These aren’t real people and with all the live, actual bad things happening in the world, it’s tough to feel empathy or mercy towards someone who has time to feel sad about the end of a character on a show that’s been on way longer than it needed to be. But I’m still going to say this anyway: Derek’s death meant a lot to me. Yes, he was a character on a show, but he was also more than that. Over a decade’s worth of watching him, he became a symbol for good at the end of the day, for hope for those that are less than optimistic.

It’s the end of an era, a decade of something unreal (in a very literal sense) and yet still very present in my life. This will be my last season watching Grey’s Anatomy. I have loved every break up and make up, and fake surgeries that could never happen. I’ve loved even the plane crashes and the unnecessary deaths. As Shonda Rhimes is queen of doing, she’s impacted my life with her fiction in a way few writers ever do. And I’ll forever be grateful.

Goodbye, my old friend. I will miss you so much.



All of My Favorite TV Characters Keep Dying

All of My Favorite TV Characters Keep Dying:

A Look At Six TV Deaths We’re Sure We Will Never Get Over

It’s in marketing’s nature for television shows to say that each episode is going to be “the most dramatic episode of television ever” or something as grandiose and obscene that writers can never really come through on. This year, however, it seems series aren’t afraid of killing off regulars. Although some shows are following the design that was made far before their existence (House of Cards), other shows are fearlessly murdering their main characters. Here are the most shocking character loses of the past four months.


Brian Griffin


The death of this beloved dog from Family Guy was so shocking to fans that social media seemed to go up in flames with petitions against the dogs death. Alas, the death lasted only a few weeks, but like any beloved character, Brian’s death was truly a shocker to fans.


Clay Morrow

clay morrow

Sons of Anarchy fans knew that the end of Clay Morrow’s reign was inevitable, but it was still hard to see him go! As show creator Kurt Sutter told EW,  “As much as people say that they want Clay dead, they don’t want Clay dead…They want to see it be complicated. They want to see how Gemma feels about betraying Clay. They want to see how Juice feels about betraying. They want to see that play out even though they, in their gut, they know the guy should be dead.” Ahh, I guess in Morrow’s case, there is a little rest for the wicked.



Joss Carter

joss carter

Audiences were (umm, present tense ‘are’ still for some of us) devastated when Detective Carter was killed in this season’s Person of Interest. Commercials leading up to the episode all pointed in the direction that another character would be killed off, but when it was Carter who was taken down, fans immediately went to social media to express their outrage at the loss of good gal Carter. I guess that last moment between Carter and Reese became the literal kiss of death…


Zoe Barnes

zoe barnes

Okay! It is true that Zoe Barnes dies in the British version of House of Cards and so her death shouldn’t have been a big shocker. But somehow when (almost) President Underwood pushes feisty little Zoe in front of a moving subway train IN THE FIRST 30 MINUTES OF SEASON TWO, I was waiting for some sign that this was a horrible day dream designed by Underwood.  Three episodes passed and I was still waiting for Zoe to reappear, alive and in tact. I hope Zoe is resting in some chair-less journalist heaven.


James Novak

james novak

Novak’s husband had almost gotten him bumped off before, but this time it seems Cyrus’ actions really got his own husband killed. Just when it seems Cyrus and James can pull it together and be a family, Shonda Rhimes and the Scandal writers (or “the crushers of all dreams” as I like to call them) decide to make sure former sweetheart Jake gruesomely kills James, and stays to watch him go. Rest in peace to the white hats, no?


Will Gardner

will gardner

As this death just happened only hours ago—with no warning and seemingly no real end game—it’s still a big shocker to me. Gardner’s chemistry with Alicia—their banter, their eye contact, their obvious pull to one another—is the main reason many fans continue to watch the Will-Alicia-Peter love triangle after FIVE seasons. The Kings had managed to keep writing the same love story without making their audience ever wish it would end. One thing audiences across the board (and I myself!) thought was that whenever The Good Wife ended, Alicia and Will would be hand-in-hand. Apparently we were all so very wrong.

There are exactly five stages of grief. I’ll let you know when I get past stage one.

B!#*H Stole My Look…on purpose

How often are you watching TV and experiencing some major fenvy over your favorite characters’ impressive wardrobe options. Ugh, She feels like your best friend and yet you cant shoot her a text asking where she got that great outfit.       Frustration!!

Be frustrated no more! WornOnTv.net is an awesome website that gives you all the outfit details on the main characters from most prime time shows  {even some that are off the air}.

top and skirt worn by Rachael Bilson on Hart of Dixie
top and skirt worn by Rachael Bilson on Hart of Dixie

You can search outfits by show, character or episode, and you’re likely to come across an exact match of what you were looking for, or at least something close. Though be prepared for a little sticker shock in some cases.

For example:

kristen bell on House of Lies
kristen bell on House of Lies

The lovey Kristen Bell , as Jeannie on “House of Lies” this past weekend, sported a blue and green pleated dress {Square Dot Dress by Proenza Schouler} with a leather jacket. You can find this dress on WornOnTv , along with its $1070 price tag  *shocker*. However the cool thing is that  readers can comment and  suggest similar finds with perhaps more pocket friendly prices. I was excited to send in a suggestion for this dress that I recently got from target as a  similar and muuuch more affordable option at  $27. Take your pick!


Tonight’s episode of Girls felt like the feel good episode that happens right before the shit hits the fan. Hannah gets her first real paycheck. Adam gets an actual acting job. And all of the girls meet up in one of New York’s most fancy hotels for a free night’s stay.

Besides warming my little hopeless romantic heart with an honest and envy-worthy bathtub scene with Hannah and Adam, the episode had a bunch of great tunes that I assume I’ll be playing over and over for the next twenty-four hours. Thought I might as well share them with you so you can also obsess.

You’re welcome.

When Hannah walks past an expensively gorgeous dress and actually goes in to buy it, she’s listening to Lily Allen’s “L8 CMMR.”

After crying in the bathroom with Hannah, Marnie comes out to sing “Roll On, John” by Bob Dylan with the traveling actor Desi.

The rolling credits song featured Miguel’s “Simple Things.”

5 Reasons Why You Should Be Watching “Looking”

Looking is HBO’s latest attempt at showing friendship, love, and what it’s like to look for those things. The show features three gay men who live in San Francisco. It has been compared to a host of shows including HBO’s own Girls but even if the subject matter appears to be the same, Looking really is in a field of its own. Here are five reasons why you should be catching up on this series.


5. San Francisco is a character

Looking does for San Francisco what Sex and the City and The Wire did for New York City and Baltimore respectively.



4. The storyline feels real

Although the show is about three gay guys, the story transcends the boundaries of sexuality and gender. It feels like it could be anyone’s story, therefore pulling you closer to the characters.


before sunrise

3. There is a Before Sunrise feel to the characters

Looking has received a lot of criticism for being “boring,” but the writers have made the mundanity of every day conversation psychoanalytical AND beautiful.



2. There is no anti-hero

Most critically acclaimed shows right now either have (1.) the lead as an angsty, cold hyper-heterosexual male doing something illegal and/or adulterous (cough, cough Mad Men and Breaking Bad) orrrr (2.) a selfish “know-it-all” who is difficult to root for or even like (Girls, anyone?). Patrick, Agustin, and Dom (Jonathan Groff, Frankie J. Alvarez, Murray Bartlett) have their flaws, but they are more than likeable, they’re even charming.


jonathan groff


Patrick is anxious and curious and hesitant of his own feelings, but there is something about that smile that completely sucks you in. Groff’s character feels like a good friend and by episode four, you genuinely just want to see him happy.